Sunday, October 16, 2011

14 hours of labor

I woke up at 2am on September 25th with a pain in my abdomen, thought nothing more than I just really had to go pee. Woke back up at 4:30am with more intense pain went into the bathroom and realized that it was not that I had to pee, I was in LABOR! I woke Matt up and told him I needed to call the doctor just to make sure this was real labor and not fake. I called the doctor and told him I was feeling some contractions in my back and  they were about 10 minutes apart. He told me to relax and call back between 8am and 9am because I was in early labor. I thought, Oh my gosh! This is REALLY happening right now i'm in labor!! So Matt grabbed a piece of paper and started writing down the time of my contractions, how long they were and where they were. I grabbed my sponge bob coloring book (the one I had been coloring in since about week 30 of my pregnancy when I started getting really bored) and decided to color Gracie a picture. I turned on the tv and boy was I happy with the line up until 8am...Golden Girls, Threes Company and The Nanny! My favorite tv shows what luck! My contractions started getting a little stronger and longer and they were all in my back. All I could think of was, is this going to come around to the front or am I going to end up with the back labor that I have heard horror stories about? After I was finished with my coloring I wrote the time and date and that I was in labor. I got up and started walking around because that definitely better than sitting around! Finally 8 am came and my contractions were about 5 minutes apart. I called the doctor and he said to head to the hospital.When I got to the hospital they checked me and I was only 3 cm dilated. They told me that labor could take up to 2 days and that if I didn't dilate to 5 they were going to send me home. I'm thinking oh great! There was no way I wanted to go home and be miserable for 2 days! I was going to have this baby today! After they checked me I started to feel the pain worse and it was still in my back. I'm not going to lie it was the worst pain I ever felt. All I wanted was for someone to be able to give me some pain medicine. After a little while my nurse came in and said the doctor wanted me to get up and walk around. I was up for anything at that point. So off Matt and I went doing laps around the labor & delivery floor. I would have a contraction and I would try to walk right through it. Walking definitely helped! The pain didn't feel as bad as it did when I was lying down. Finally at about noon the nurse checked me and I was 6cm dilated! She said to me "Looks like we are having a baby today!" Instantly I started crying. Then the nurse says to me "Do you want an epidural?" "YES!!!!!!!" I replied! They took me to my room where it felt like forever until I got my epidural. The anesthesiologist came in and took a look at my back and because I have a slight scoliosis she said to me the epidural might not fully work. I'm like GREAT! She hooked up my epidural and I felt a cool liquid go down my back. It actually felt pretty neat! She told me it could take up to 15 minutes until it worked but I started feeling numb right away. Because I did have back labor they also said it might not be as effective.  I was numb except for one spot on my back, and even the pain I felt was not bad at all. So the doctor came in and checked me and I was now 7cm. So I got my orange snow cone and sat back and waited. What felt like an hour later I started feeling intense pain again. I'm thinking what the heck is going on and is this normal? The doctor came in and I was between 8 & 9cm dilated. He then broke my water and said I'll be back in 5 minutes to check you because this is going so fast it should not take long for you to get to 10cm. Then he said your baby should be here around 5 o'clock. I started crying again! But the happy tears soon turned to tears of pain because my epidural had worn off and they couldn't do anything about it because I would be pushing soon. This was the WORST pain I have ever felt, I thought I was going to die. The nurse came in twice and checked me and I was still at 9cm. Finally a few minutes later the doctor came in and I was complete! I'm like thank god!!!! I pushed for an hour and at 6:12pm my Gracie Mae was here. They put her on my chest immediately and I just cried. I could not believe she was finally here! After they cleaned her up I got to hold her and I looked at her and thought, all that pain was worth it. I immediately fell in love with her. No words can describe holding your child for the first time except love.

Tuesday, September 13, 2011

8 Days

Today I've been thinking a lot about how my life is soon going to change. 8 days..that's all I have left assuming that little Gracie will be born on her exact due date, but what are the chances of that happening? I keep thinking which day will she be born? How big will she be? Will she have a lot of hair or no hair at all? I look back on my entire pregnancy and how lucky I was to have such a good experience. No morning sickness, not a lot of swelling, no complications. I'm truly lucky. I've been standing in the mirror a lot today looking at my belly thinking what will I look like without it? I honestly can't remember what it was like not having a baby bump. It's weird cause before I got pregnant I wondered what I would look like with a baby bump. Gracie was just moving like crazy a few minutes ago, is it going to be weird not feeling her kicks, hiccups, wiggles and occasional hit to my ribs? I know these are all natural feelings, but I still can't help but to think what is it going to be like? Now onto labor, at about 25 weeks I remember starting to get really nervous about what it was going to be like. Holy crap was I nervous. I remember about 2 years ago when my sister had my youngest nephew I asked her how bad it hurt and she replied, "Imagine your period cramps times a million". Oh boy. I talked to my nana about it a few times and she told me that my great grandmother gave her some advise about pushing, and that was "Imagine you have to take a huge shit". I'm definitely going to take that advise with me into the delivery room . Now that I think about labor all I want to do is get her out, I just want to meet my little girl. I don't care how bad it hurts, that's what the epidural is for. My mom comes tomorrow and will be staying with us until after Gracie is born. I'm so glad she will be here with me through all of this. It doesn't matter how old you get, sometimes you still need your mom :) Also it will be great to have her here once Gracie arrives, and I can get her advise on things. All in all i'm ready, I'm SO ready for this little angel to arrive...8 days :)